sovereignty

Meditating on a few thoughts this morning. My husband and I are reading the book Trusting God, Even When Life Hurts by Jerry Bridges. The idea of "God's will" has been one we've personally wrestled with. I think it's a pretty universal question, as Christians seem to be preoccupied with what God wants for us. However, in my opinion, and what God's been showing me, is that the better thought is of His sovereignty. When we take the focus off of "me" (God's will for me) and put it on Him (who He is), our attention is better placed.

Anyway, a quote from the first chapter of Bridges' book: "God in His love always wills what is best for us. In His wisdom He always knows what is best, and in His sovereignty He has the power to bring it about" (p17, emphasis mine).

These ideas are swirling in my head as I wrestle with emotions from over the weekend. Another Mother's Day without Nathan. The 2 year mark of Nathan's death approaching. Irrational thoughts of losing Zane. My intense need to check on Zane during his naptimes for breathing. Job loss. Questions of the future. My husband pursuing reception of an endorsement from the So. Baptist Association in order to apply to Army Chaplaincy. The possible move from civilian life to Army life. So much, too much!

Help me remember, Lord, that because of your love, your wisdom, and your sovereignty, my life is best placed in your hands. I trust you with the future of my son, specifically, as well as the future of our family. Help me take the focus off of me and put it on you, and your magnificence.

Yours, O LORD, is the greatness and the power
and the glory and the majesty and the splendor,
for everything in heaven and earth is yours.
Yours, O LORD, is the kingdom;
you are exalted as head over all.
1 Chronicles 29:11