Friday, September 2, 2011


I hate it when the numbers don't add up. When the expenses column out measures the income column. When it doesn't seem possible to refrain from spending as each new thing comes up. There have been too many month's ends we don't know how it happened (except by the hand of God) but somehow there's still food on the table and a roof over our heads. I know that the words "don't have enough" are relative. Even some six-figure wage earners probably have used that phrase more than once. I have been struggling lately though with not having "enough." I have wallowed in the sinful world of "it's not fair" too much this week. I've put unnecessary stress on my husband, even if he didn't know why, from simply having a bad attitude. I've been wrong.
But I'm having a hard time getting up, fighting what Satan is using to distract me from all that God has blessed me with.

So, what comes next is a list. I must re-shift my focus. A list to remind me of the haves and not the we can't get right nows. So, "acroynmically" speaking...

I am blessed because I -
H - a home; the four walls + a roof but more importantly the members of my family within it

A - availability; I am at home with the children right now. I have the priviledge of being available to them or my husband, to serve them & to love them

V - very little health concerns; all of us are physically well and whole

E - eternal life; upon death, I have the promise of heaven

I must focus on all that I have and even better, beyond that inward facing thought, what I can give out of that which I do have.


Courtney K. said...

Yep. I've been there. Our first year or two of marriage was SO HARD. I remember clearly all of those days where I sat staring at our bank account and wondering where the money went and how we were going to make it until the next payday. It's hard to not feel like you have "enough" in this commercialistic world. Praying for you friend. Hugs!

Lisa writes... said...

Thank you for your honesty and for the reminder of what I too H.A.V.E! Blessings to you, friend, as you persevere in fighting the good fight. The Lord is faithful!