As I type... a colonel is impacting our future... my husband is meeting with a chaplain colonel at a nearby Army post. Endorsement has been acquired, paperwork is together, now this interview has to take place before a packet can be compiled and sent to the review/selection board. As this process has taken (by our own choosing) about nine months to come to this point, God has worked on my heart in many ways. I feel that I am living content with where we are... as far as our situation right now. Sure, it might not be where I'd want to stay forever (monetarily or geographically), but I guess I've learned even more about rolling with things. My role (first and foremost, to be a forgiven, loved, redeemed, child of God) is to be wife and mommy no matter where we live or what my husband does for a living. Some days I struggle with that - my sinful, selfish side wants to break free and be "more" or "different," but when I stop and let the Lord work on my heart, I realize just how much "more" I already have access to. My boundaries are limitless in God's eyes. A teen called last night asking for help in reading a passage in 2 Timothy. It comes to mind now with this idea of limitlessness. By repenting and throwing off any sin that hinders our relationship with God, He is free to use us for so much.
21 Therefore, if anyone cleanses himself from what is dishonorable, he will be a vessel for honorable use, set apart as holy, useful to the master of the house, ready for every good work.
No matter what my future holds, I do know that God will use me if only I am usable. My contentment must rest in Him and my role defined by His loving hand.