life

On this one year anniversary of sorts of the last day my son was alive within me last year, I want to just praise God for the amazing ability He has given the female body to house and grow new life within it. I am daily incredulous of the way my body can hold another human being within me, with only minor adjustments to my physical body. What an incredible honor as a woman... to know that our body was designed to carry a child inside. I am aware that some women are not physically able to bear a child and for that my soul aches for you. Please know that this post is not meant to "rub it in" or hurt you further today. Please accept my sincere apologies for those that are unable to have children. The Lord has given you a future of hope as well, and I pray that His will would be made known to you, on what must be a heartbreaking, confusing subject.

Nathan's last day of life was the Thursday before Memorial Day (date-wise, it was actually the 22nd), but as I go through routine today and remember that we had a doctor's appointment that Thursday and I think how oblivious I was of what would transpire the next two days, I just want to bask in the Lord's goodness for the life that was within me that day. For His gift of my son.

Psalm 139:

⁷ Where can I go from your Spirit?
Where can I flee from your presence?

⁸ If I go up to the heavens, you are there;
if I make my bed in the depths, you are there.

⁹ If I rise on the wings of the dawn,
if I settle on the far side of the sea,

¹⁰ even there your hand will guide me,
your right hand will hold me fast.

¹¹ If I say, "Surely the darkness will hide me
and the light become night around me,"

¹² even the darkness will not be dark to you;
the night will shine like the day,
for darkness is as light to you.

¹³ For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother's womb.

¹⁴ I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.

¹⁵ My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place.
When I was woven together in the depths of the earth,

¹⁶ your eyes saw my unformed body.
All the days ordained for me
were written in your book
before one of them came to be.